An Introduction

Welcome to my blog.

Very very very long story somewhat shorter:  I have debilitating stage fright.  

However, I refuse to die with my music still inside of me* so I am doing everything I can to get over it.

This horrible stage fright, the paralyzingly debilitating kind, is specific to my music which, oddly enough, is what I've done longest and what I do best (as opposed to dancing, modeling and acting - which I also do in both amateur and professional capacities!).  There are many reasons for that, many of which I will talk about in this blog.

Two years ago, when I moved to Toronto, I decided it was the time to get over this stage fright and do what I truly believe I was put on this planet to do.  I got to the point where my fear no longer out weighed my passion to perform my beloved music.  Quite frankly, I'm sick and tired of carrying this around.  I'm ready to put it down and get on with it.  

It wasn't until I met Jess McAvoy this past October that I actively began working on it.  I signed on with Jess knowing she was a song writing coach and I needed help finishing the tunes I'd been working on over the last year.  Little did I know that she is an innate healer and lessons would be about so much more than the technical aspects of songwriting.  She is giving me the tools I need to get past this block to not only make my music but also to share it.  I am so grateful.

We've been working together for a month and already the change in me is massive.  I wish I had started this blog last month but so it goes.

With Jess's help, the support and inspiration from my incredibly talented husband and the network of incredible friends I've made in the music community I know I can do this.

I will be using this blog to chart my progress, make note of important lessons and share recordings and performances.  I plan to post a video each week of a cover song and eventually start sharing my original recordings.  In time, I hope to be posting recordings from gigs.  Only time will tell.  I hope you enjoy reading about my journey from playing in my living room for my cats to playing gigs around this amazing city.  And for those of you who hide your art away because of fear of any kind I hope it serves as inspiration for you to shed that heavy cloak and step out into the light too.

* paraphrase of Dr. Wayne W. Dyer's beautiful quote "do not die with your music still in you" which was passed on to me from my amazing cousin, Rene.